Tony Farnfield (1967-2014)

FARNFIELD ANTHONY KENNETH (Tony) Passed away suddenly on 25th November 2014, aged 47 years. He will be greatly missed by his wife Paula, parents Brian & Maureen, both families, many friends and colleagues. A service in celebration of Tony's life to be held at Reading Minster Church of St Mary the Virgin on Wednesday 17th December at 2.00pm followed by a private committal. No flowers, but donations, if desired, to Round Table Children’s Wish, 857 Wimborne Road, Bournemouth BH9 2BQ or via www.rtcw.org. All enquires to AB Walker & Son Ltd. Tel: 0118 9573650

Tony and I met at school. He was always so much taller than me… than all of us, really.

He introduced me to Stevie Wonder and all kinds of obscure funk music, most of which would be both extremely amusing and quite unplayable here. We shared a love of Minis: although mine tended to rust away and his wrapped around lampposts (he claimed he was avoiding a cat!). We played Basketball together, and formed with a few others an unoffical school team because the authorities didn’t want reprobates like us representing them. I looked up to Tony, and not just because of his height advantage.

There would never be any question of who would be my Best Man. Who else would I trust, who else would, I knew be there for me; he drove us both down to Seaford in Sussex for my wedding on the hottest day of the year in a cramped TR7 with the heating full on (because it was broken and stuck on). The combination of such a tall man in such a cramped and hot car will never leave me: the sauna courtesy of shocking British Leyland engineering ensured that I fitted snugly in my morning suit!

Tony was Godfather to my eldest Son, Liam. His attitude to buying gifts for Liam was “what would I want?” and this ensured that Tony’s was always the coolest, fasted, loudest, most raucous, most loved thing on the table, usually brought down to us in some flash open-topped convertible pose-mobile. His favourite party trick for my kids was when he put a TV-themes CD in the stereo and (clearly with practised timing) set the automatic roof to open to the Thunderbirds theme!

We both separately joined Table in our own parts of the world (Seaford and Newhaven 837 in my case), and whenever passing, a Table meeting was always on the cards, or somehow a Brewery Tour conjured up out of nowhere. We even saw the new Millennium in together.

When Tony suffered his major and life-changing road accident, there was no doubt in my mind where I had to be, and I broke all kinds of traffic regulations to get across the country to be at his bedside. If ever I am asked (and strangely enough, I am often asked) about whether prayer works, I point to Tony Farnfield. Over the space of first hours and then weeks and then months, Tony went from extremely critically ill, to probably permanently damaged, to probably permanently dehabilitated to fully restored and returned to us: a tribute to both the hard work and skill of a whole variety of healthcare professionals and the power of prayer: a whole host of people holding Tony before God and a living proof of the combination of hard work from himself, and the love, prayer and support of those who surrounded him then, and even now gather to support all those who grieve over the tragically untimely loss of Tony now.

Tony often afterwards spoke to me of that accident as a spiritually life-changing incident and was the foundation of his life as a man of faith. Tony was always very supportive of me in my priestly vocation and accompanied me at theological college in Yorkshire through the journey of Holy Week, even though with his bean-counter’s hat on, he proudly declared by Easter Day “I’ve done 76 episodes of Church this Holy Week, I can now take the rest of the year off”.

Several times a week, Tony remains before me, as I take Holy Communion around my own parish, using the set he gifted me at Ordination. On it is a tag which bears the Scripture 2 Corinthian 1:3-4

“All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”

There are no simple or facile words which can be offered in the face of this tragic loss, no mantra which blithely papers over the reality of the hole that is left in the lives of many family, friends, Tablers, and work colleagues. However, the promise of Christ – known and personally experienced by Tony, looks beyond the frame of our lives and into an eternal promise. God comforts us in our troubles and promises to wipe away every tear from our eyes. Death is (although we never speak of it) a reality for all of us, a part of life, even when that life is cut tragically short as in Tony’s case before he had had nearly enough fun.

What we are left with are memories. In my case, getting onto 40 years of happy memories. In those memories, in the love and – yes – in the prayer of those who remain here on earth, Tony remains with us. I will never be able to shake off the memory of his appalling taste in shoes; nor his habit of changing his car more frequently than his socks; nor can I ever forget his love and care and concern for me and then for my family.

My oldest friend, now gathered into the loving and restoring arms of God, remains here in my prayers, and in my memories; and in the memories of all of us gathered here today. So as God comforts Tony, ripped from us, may we too know of the comfort God offers us all.

Rest eternal grant unto him O Lord
and let light perpetual shine upon him

My he rest in peace
and rise in Glory


Family Communion: 19th October 2014 to the Nursery Rhyme Mass

Family Communion: 19th October 2014 – other texts may be found in a similar vein at www.nurseryrhymemass.org.uk

Gathering Song (Here we go round the Mulberry Bush)

We gather round in this holy space
Holy Space, filled with grace
We gather round in this holy space
To do what Jesus taught us

We hear the stories of our King
Eternal life, for us he’ll win
We share his meal and pray with him
And do what Jesus taught us.

In the name of the +Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen

The Lord be with you
and also with you

Penitential Rite (Ba Ba Blacksheep)

Just like lost sheep we have gone astray
Done bad things and run away
So we come to say sorry
Make things better as you see
Loving Jesus make anew
Our lives so we can be like you.

Absolution (If you’re happy…)

You’re forgiven and you know it, so clap your hands
You’re forgiven and you know, so you really ought to show it,
You’re forgiven and you know it, so clap your hands

Jesus loves you and you know it, so stamp your feet
Jesus loves you and you know it, so you really ought to show it
Jesus loves you and you know it, so stamp your feet

If you believe that God forgives you, say “We do” “We do”
When you say that you are sorry, you no longer have to worry
God takes away your sin, so say “Amen”. Amen!

Gloria (Old Macdonald)

Glory be to God on high
To all on earth be peace
Lord God, Heavenly King
For you we praise and sing

O Lord God,
Lamb of God,
You take away
the sin of the world
Have mercy on us

You alone are the holy one
You alone are the Lord
You alone are the mo-ost high
Jesus Christ

In the Glory of God,
the Fa-a-ather
ever one
Always three
A-a-a-a-men

A-a-a-a-men!

Collect

Let us pray…

Father God
We come together to share your special meal
And share in the love you have for us
Through Jesus Christ, Our Lord and the Holy Spirit
One God, for ever and ever
Amen

Word

Daniel in the Lions’ Den (taken from Creative Ideas for Children’s Worship Year A p267 by Sarah Lenton)

Once upon a time there was great King . . .

His name was Darius – and he was so rich and famous that one day he made a new law. He said that in future his people were not to worship God any more but worship him instead.

So his people bowed down in front of Darius and prayed to him. But there was a Jew living in his country – his name was Daniel.

And he refused to bow down to Darius, he shook his head and folded his arms . . . And he said – ‘No, I will serve you, O King, but I will not worship you. I only worship God.’ And every day Daniel bowed down three
times to God.

Well, the Persians went and told on him. They whispered in the King’s ear . . . And the King had to punish Daniel. He was sorry to do so, because he liked him – but he wasn’t going to be disobeyed.

He had a huge den of lions . . . They were very fierce and they roared . . .

And he threw Daniel to the lions . . .

The King stood outside and called out: ‘I hope your God saves you, Daniel!’And then he closed up the den with a stone.

And that night the King couldn’t sleep – he just walked up anddown. And, as soon as it was light, he rushed to the den and shouted out. ‘Daniel, are you OK?’

And Daniel called back, ‘Certainly! God sent me an Angel . . .and His Angel stopped the mouth of the lions . . . and I’m fine!’

So the King took away the stone and let Daniel out.

He realized that he had made a silly law and he stopped pretending to be God; he allowed his people to worship God properly, and he just went on being King. And who was the person he trusted most in his whole country?
Yup, Daniel.

This is the Word of the Lord
Thanks be to God

Blessed be God
King of the Universe
Who reigns for ever and ever. Amen

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit
As it was in the beginning, is now and shall be for ever. World without end. Amen

Creed (to the tune of frere Jacques)

God our Father, God our Mother [or above all other
We believe, we believe
who created all things, who created all things
Earth and sea, stars and me.

Christ our Saviour, Christ our Saviour
We believe, we believe
Lived and died and risen, lived and died and risen
You and me, set us free.

Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit
We believe, we believe
Moving here among us, moving here among us
God right here, near as near.

Three in one, three in one
One in three, one in three
God revealing all things, God revealing all things
Dancing free, trinity.

Prayers (to the tune of London Bridge is Falling Down)

We thank you Lord for all we have
All we have, all we have
We thank you Lord for all we have
Which you give us

We pray to you for all our friends,
all our friends, all our friends
And all those who need our prayer
Come and help them

We pray for those who are sick or ill
sick or ill, sick or ill
sad or lonely, stressed or ill
Come and help them

Hail Mary full of grace
full of grace, full of grace
The Lord is with you, pray for us
Now and always

And to God we give our prayers
give our prayers, give our prayers
Hear us Lord and help us on
Now and always
Amen!

Peace

Here we are
One in Christ
Gathered here
Ain’t this nice?
So let us share a sign of peace
A kiss or hug before the feast…

The peace of the Lord be always with you
and also with you

Let us offer one another a sign of peace

Pray, my brothers and sisters, that this our sacrifice may be acceptable to God the almighty Father.
May the Lord accept the sacrifice at your hands, for the praise and glory of his name, for our good and the good of all his Church.

Prayer over the gifts

Heavenly Father, we thank you for these gifts,
Bread and Wine, fruit of the earth
We pray you will change them
as you change us
by the power of your Holy Spirit

Preface (Kum By Yah)

The Lord is here right now
His spirit with us

Lift up your hearts to him
We lift them up

It’s the right thing to do
Yes Jesus, O yes, we come in prayer

Lord of all life,
you created the universe,
where all living things reflect your glory.
You give us this great and beautiful earth,
to discover and to cherish.

You give us sun and moon and star-lit sky,
everything that gives us light,
light for our eyes, our hearts, our minds.

You made us all,
each wonderfully different,
to join with the angels
and sing your praise:

Sanctus (Kum By Yah)

Holy, Holy Lord, O Holy God
Our prayers are joined
By the Saints
Blessed is the one
Who comes in peace
Blessed is the Prince of Peace

Eucharistic Prayer 2 for Children

Father, on the night before he died,
Jesus shared a meal with his friends.
He took the bread, and thanked you.
He broke it, and gave it to them, saying:

Take and eat; this is my body, given for you.
Do this to remember me.

After the meal, Jesus took the cup of wine.
He thanked you, and gave it to them, saying:

Drink this, all of you.
This is my blood,
the new promise of God’s unfailing love.
Do this to remember me.

Memorial Acclamation (Kum By Yah)

Let us proclaim Of our faith

“Christ has died
And has arisen
Christ will come
To us again
O yes, he will return”

Father, as we offer this bread and wine,
and remember his death and resurrection,
send your +Holy Spirit,
that we who share these gifts
may be fed by Christ’s body and his blood.

Pour your Spirit on us
that we may love one another,
work for the healing of the earth,
and share the good news of Jesus,
as we wait for his coming in glory.

For honour and praise belong to you, Father,
with Jesus your Son, and the Holy Spirit:
one God, for ever and ever.

Great Amen (Kum By Yah)

Amen, Amen
Let it be so,
Amen, Amen
Let it be so,
Amen, Amen
We say this now,
Amen, O yes, Amen!

Lord’s Prayer (Pop Goes the Weasel)

Our Father, who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy na-a-ame.
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us all our si-i-ns
As we forgive
all those us who sin
or trespass against us

Let us not be drawn into
Any kind of temptation
Deliver us
from the evil one
Amen, Amen, Amen.

Agnus Dei (3 blind mice)

Lamb of God, Lamb of God
You take away, the sin of the world
Have mercy on us, Lamb of God
Don’t let us stray away from the flock
You take away the sin of the world
So grant us peace

Come and eat, come and drink
You’re welcome here, come quite near
Share in his body and blood with us
It tastes like wine and bread but just
Know that inside it’s not quite thus
Share the food of God.

Communion Antiphon

Taste and see that the Lord is good

Prayer after Communion (Polly put the kettle on)

Thank you for the meal we eat
Thank you for the meal we eat
Thank you for the meal we eat
Christ brings us life

Now let us go from this place
Now let us go from this place
Now let us go from this place
To do his work

Blessing (Sing a Song of Sixpence)

The Lord be with you
And also with you

Bow your heads and pray for God’s blessing

May the Lord now +bless you
And keep you all safe
Send you out from here
In a state of grace
Take what we have learned
About Jesus our King
And do what he has taught us
To make the world a better thing.

Go, the Mass has ended
But our service has begun
We heard it straight from Jesus
What it means to live as one
With him now up in heaven
Looking from above
Blessing us in all our work
Let’s go and share his love.

The Mass is ended. Go in the Peace of Christ.
Thanks be to God


Family Communion: June 2014

Family Communion: 15th June 2014

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Gathering Song (Here we go round the Mulberry Bush)

We gather round in this holy space
Holy Space, filled with grace
We gather round in this holy space
To do what Jesus taught us

We hear the stories of our King
Eternal life, for us he’ll win
We share his meal and pray with him
And do what Jesus taught us.

In the name of the +Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen

The Lord be with you
and also with you

Penitential Rite (Ba Ba Blacksheep)

Just like lost sheep we have gone astray
Done bad things and run away
So we come to say sorry
Make things better as you see
Loving Jesus make anew
Our lives so we can be like you.

Absolution (If you’re happy…)

You’re forgiven and you know it, so clap your hands
You’re forgiven and you know, so you really ought to show it,
You’re forgiven and you know it, so clap your hands

Jesus loves you and you know it, so stamp your feet
Jesus loves you and you know it, so you really ought to show it
Jesus loves you and you know it, so stamp your feet

If you believe that God forgives you, say “We do” “We do”
When you say that you are sorry, you no longer have to worry
God takes away your sin, so say “Amen”. Amen!

Gloria (Old Macdonald)

Glory be to God on high
To all on earth be peace
Lord God, Heavenly King
For you we praise and sing

O Lord God,
Lamb of God,
You take away
the sin of the world
Have mercy on us

You alone are the holy one
You alone are the Lord
You alone are the mo-ost high
Jesus Christ

In the Glory of God,
the Fa-a-ather
ever one
Always three
A-a-a-a-men

A-a-a-a-men!
Collect

Let us pray…

Thank you Lord for bringing us here
Together as friends and family

Thank you Lord so we can share
This special meal with you.

Amen!

Gospel: Listen 30 p64

This is the Gospel of the Lord
Praise to you, O Christ

Creed (to the tune of frere Jacques)

God our Father, God our Mother [or above all other
We believe, we believe
who created all things, who created all things
Earth and sea, stars and me.

Christ our Saviour, Christ our Saviour
We believe, we believe
Lived and died and risen, lived and died and risen
You and me, set us free.

Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit
We believe, we believe
Moving here among us, moving here among us
God right here, near as near.

Three in one, three in one
One in three, one in three
God revealing all things, God revealing all things
Dancing free, trinity.

Prayers (to the tune of London Bridge is Falling Down)

We thank you Lord for all we have
All we have, all we have
We thank you Lord for all we have
Which you give us

We pray to you for all our friends,
all our friends, all our friends
And all those who need our prayer
Come and help them

We pray for those who are sick or ill
sick or ill, sick or ill
sad or lonely, stressed or ill
Come and help them

Hail Mary full of grace
full of grace, full of grace
The Lord is with you, pray for us
Now and always

And to God we give our prayers
give our prayers, give our prayers
Hear us Lord and help us on
Now and always
Amen!

Peace

Here we are
One in Christ
Gathered here
Ain’t this nice?
So let us share a sign of peace
A kiss or hug before the feast…

The peace of the Lord be always with you
and also with you

Let us offer one another a sign of peace

Pray, my brothers and sisters, that this our sacrifice may be acceptable to God the almighty Father.
May the Lord accept the sacrifice at your hands, for the praise and glory of his name, for our good and the good of all his Church.

Prayer over the gifts

Heavenly Father, we thank you for these gifts,
Bread and Wine, fruit of the earth
We pray you will change them
as you change us
by the power of your Holy Spirit

Preface (Kum By Yah)

The Lord is here right now
His spirit with us

Lift up your hearts to him
We lift them up

It’s the right thing to do
Yes Jesus, O yes, we come in prayer

Lord of all life,
you created the universe,
where all living things reflect your glory.
You give us this great and beautiful earth,
to discover and to cherish.

You give us sun and moon and star-lit sky,
everything that gives us light,
light for our eyes, our hearts, our minds.

You made us all,
each wonderfully different,
to join with the angels
and sing your praise:
Sanctus (Kum By Yah)

Holy, Holy Lord, O Holy God
Our prayers are joined
By the Saints
Blessed is the one
Who comes in peace
Blessed is the Prince of Peace

Eucharistic Prayer 2 for Children

Father, on the night before he died,
Jesus shared a meal with his friends.
He took the bread, and thanked you.
He broke it, and gave it to them, saying:

Take and eat; this is my body, given for you.
Do this to remember me.

After the meal, Jesus took the cup of wine.
He thanked you, and gave it to them, saying:

Drink this, all of you.
This is my blood,
the new promise of God’s unfailing love.
Do this to remember me.

Memorial Acclamation (Kum By Yah)

Let us proclaim Of our faith

“Christ has died
And has arisen
Christ will come
To us again
O yes, he will return”

Father, as we offer this bread and wine,
and remember his death and resurrection,
send your +Holy Spirit,
that we who share these gifts
may be fed by Christ’s body and his blood.

Pour your Spirit on us
that we may love one another,
work for the healing of the earth,
and share the good news of Jesus,
as we wait for his coming in glory.

For honour and praise belong to you, Father,
with Jesus your Son, and the Holy Spirit:
one God, for ever and ever.

Great Amen (Kum By Yah)

Amen, Amen
Let it be so,
Amen, Amen
Let it be so,
Amen, Amen
We say this now,
Amen, O yes, Amen!

Lord’s Prayer (Pop Goes the Weasel)

Our Father, who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy na-a-ame.
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us all our si-i-ns
As we forgive
all those us who sin
or trespass against us

Let us not be drawn into
Any kind of temptation
Deliver us
from the evil one
Amen, Amen, Amen.

Agnus Dei (3 blind mice)

Lamb of God, Lamb of God
You take away, the sin of the world
Have mercy on us, Lamb of God
Don’t let us stray away from the flock
You take away the sin of the world
So grant us peace

Come and eat, come and drink
You’re welcome here, come quite near
Share in his body and blood with us
It tastes like wine and bread but just
Know that inside it’s not quite thus
Share the food of God.

Communion Antiphon
Jesus said “Let the children come to me”

Prayer after Communion (Polly put the kettle on)

Thank you for the meal we eat
Thank you for the meal we eat
Thank you for the meal we eat
Christ brings us life

Now let us go from this place
Now let us go from this place
Now let us go from this place
To do his work

Blessing (Sing a Song of Sixpence)

The Lord be with you
And also with you

Bow your heads and pray for God’s blessing

May the Lord now +bless you
And keep you all safe
Send you out from here
In a state of grace
Take what we have learned
About Jesus our King
And do what he has taught us
To make the world a better thing.

Go, the Mass has ended
But our service has begun
We heard it straight from Jesus
What it means to live as one
With him now up in heaven
Looking from above
Blessing us in all our work
Let’s go and share his love.

The Mass is ended. Go in the Peace of Christ.
Thanks be to God


Becalmed Bedazzled Bewitched Besotted…

I think all this Marriage Preparation is making me all soppy… 24 years this year.

 

Across the road,
I watched as you window shopped, bag in hand
And as people and cars rushed past, I stood motionless
as a boat
becalmed…

And at that party,
there was a strange aura that hovered around you,
but maybe it was just you, the cheap wine, and me
feeling
bedazzled…

And for weeks after that,
my every waking thought (when my mind was clear enough to think)
has been of you, leaving me
spellbound,
bewitched…

And now here we are,
nervous, on show and in clothes we’ll never wear again,
and I’m still staring at you,
totally
besotted.

Nick Williams


School Mass: 24th January 2014 Light in the Darkness

Gathering Song:

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In the name of the +Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen

The Lord be with you
and also with you

Penitential Rite (ba ba blacksheep)

Just like lost sheep we have gone astray
Done bad things and run away
So we come to say sorry
Make things better as you see
Loving Jesus make anew
Our lives so we can be like you.

Absolution (If you’re happy…)

You’re forgiven and you know it, so clap your hands
You’re forgiven and you know, so you really ought to show it,
You’re forgiven and you know it, so clap your hands

Jesus loves you and you know it, so stamp your feet
Jesus loves you and you know it, so you really ought to show it
Jesus loves you and you know it, so stamp your feet

If you believe that God forgives you, say “We do” “We do”
When you say that you are sorry, you no longer have to worry
God takes away your sin, so say “Amen”. Amen!

Collect

Let us pray…

Heavenly Father,
Thank you for all you do for us.
Help us to be a light for those who are sad
Just as you are a light for the world
Amen

Gospel

“I am the light of the world, the light that shines in the darkness”

This is the Gospel of the Lord
Praise to you, O Christ

Take a candle. Turn out all the lights. Speak of the world as dark and scary. Light candle and speak of Jesus being the light in the darkness. The darkness runs away from the light.

There is nothing so scary that the light of Christ cannot dispel. We each have a light of faith inside us. All we have to do is light them from the light of the world and there will be nothing we cannot face. Ever.

When you take your light into other places, you light up the world with the love of Jesus. Spread the light.

Peace

Here we are
One in Christ
Gathered here
Ain’t this nice?
So let us share a sign of peace
A kiss or hug before the feast…

The peace of the Lord be always with you
and also with you

Let us offer one another a sign of peace

Pray, my brothers and sisters, that this our sacrifice may be acceptable to God the almighty Father.
May the Lord accept the sacrifice at your hands, for the praise and glory of his name, for our good and the good of all his Church.

Prayer over the gifts

Heavenly Father, we thank you for these gifts,
Bread and Wine, fruit of the earth
We pray you will change them
as you change us
by the power of your Holy Spirit

Preface (Kum By Yah)

The Lord is here right now
His spirit with us

Lift up your hearts to him
We lift them up

It’s the right thing to do
Yes Jesus, O yes, we come in prayer

Lord of all life,
you created the universe,
where all living things reflect your glory.
You give us this great and beautiful earth,
to discover and to cherish.

You give us sun and moon and star-lit sky,
everything that gives us light,
light for our eyes, our hearts, our minds.

You made us all,
each wonderfully different,
to join with the angels
and sing your praise:

Sanctus (Kum By Yah)

Holy, Holy Lord, O Holy God
Our prayers are joined
By the Saints
Blessed is the one
Who comes in peace
Blessed is the Prince of Peace

Eucharistic Prayer 2 for Children

Father, on the night before he died,
Jesus shared a meal with his friends.
He took the bread, and thanked you.
He broke it, and gave it to them, saying:

Take and eat; this is my body, given for you.
Do this to remember me.

After the meal, Jesus took the cup of wine.
He thanked you, and gave it to them, saying:

Drink this, all of you.
This is my blood,
the new promise of God’s unfailing love.
Do this to remember me.

Memorial Acclamation (Kum By Yah)

Let us proclaim Of our faith

“Christ has died
And has arisen
Christ will come
To us again
O yes, he will return”

Father, as we offer this bread and wine,
and remember his death and resurrection,
send your +Holy Spirit,
that we who share these gifts
may be fed by Christ’s body and his blood.

Pour your Spirit on us
that we may love one another,
work for the healing of the earth,
and share the good news of Jesus,
as we wait for his coming in glory.

For honour and praise belong to you, Father,
with Jesus your Son, and the Holy Spirit:
one God, for ever and ever.

Great Amen (Kum By Yah)

Amen, Amen
Let it be so,
Amen, Amen
Let it be so,
Amen, Amen
We say this now,
Amen, O yes, Amen!

Lord’s Prayer (Pop Goes the Weasel)

Our Father, who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy na-a-ame.
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us all our si-i-ns
As we forgive
all those us who sin
or trespass against us

Let us not be drawn into
Any kind of temptation
Deliver us
from the evil one
Amen, Amen, Amen.

Agnus Dei (3 blind mice)

Lamb of God, Lamb of God
You take away, the sin of the world
Have mercy on us, Lamb of God
Don’t let us stray away from the flock
You take away the sin of the world
So grant us peace

Come and eat, come and drink
You’re welcome here, come quite near
Share in his body and blood with us
It tastes like wine and bread but just
Know that inside it’s not like that
Share the food of God.

Prayer after Communion (Polly put the kettle on)

Thank you for the meal we eat
Thank you for the meal we eat
Thank you for the meal we eat
Christ brings us life

Now let us go from this place
Now let us go from this place
Now let us go from this place
To do his work

Blessing (Sing a Song of Sixpence)

The Lord be with you
And also with you

Bow your heads and pray for God’s blessing

May the Lord now +bless you
And keep you all safe
Send you out from here
In a state of grace
Take what we have learned
About Jesus our King
And do what he has taught us
To make the world a better thing.

Go, the Mass has ended
But our service has begun
We heard it straight from Jesus
What it means to live as one
With him now up in heaven
Looking from above
Blessing us in all our work
Let’s go and share his love.

The Mass is ended.
Go in the Peace of Christ.
Thanks be to God


My favourite albums of all time

Three years ago I thought about my Desert Island Discs. Now, in the post-Christmas, pre-Funeral lull, I turn my thoughts to the whole album which has meant so much to me, the LPs which I would wade into the surf to rescue…

You can tell a lot about people from their all-time top albums: not least how old they are.

The most important thing to remember as you draw judgement on my crass and sentimental list of favourite albums is that these are not the best albums ever made in my life, but the five that meant the most to me – records which got me through it all, which provided the soundtrack to my life and which were worn out my incessant playing (because all of these were vinyl, with the notable exception of One Trick Pony which was on cassette tape). It might have easily been just Bowie albums, but I have limited it to one per artist and with a couple of notable exceptions none are compilations (the Stevie Wonder album was made up of older hits, but he re-recorded them so wonderfully, it is a work of art in its own right). When I starting thinking about this list, it was a top 5, but I couldn’t stop there…

In (as they say) no particular order, the soundtrack of my life:

David Bowie – “Heroes”

Why this and no other? Why not the sublime Low or Lodger? Could I not have all three as an indivisible trilogy? No. This was the best of the Berlin albums made by Bowie/Eno. From the anthemic title track (in full, in English, for many years he started at the second verse, and it missed a lot of the melancholy as a result), to the bleak Neukoln or Sense of Doubt to my all-time favourite – the Secret Life of Arabia, this album was the quintessential Bowie. Reduced to tears in the rain one night listening to the bleak second side whilst waiting for my girlfriend, this incredible piece of music summed up being 17. My Bowie obsession was cemented with this album and it continues to this day. The fact that The Next Day features that iconic photo all but blocked out makes me very happy indeed. Bowie is back. Hail Bowie.

Update: Bowie never went away. His death in 2016 was momentous, and following what would possibly be his best album ever: Blackstar was just awesome, and made me revisit every album, every single, every bootleg I own (and believe me, that’s a lot.) but no, Heroes it is. Heroes it shall ever be. My absolute favourite album of all time, of all artists.

 

Paul Simon – One Trick Pony 

You probably weren’t expecting this from me… surely something hipper, something more seminal or important; well, to me, this beautifully written, wonderfully played soundtrack album is unhesitatingly in this list. Its slightly wistful air and chokey rhythms moved me so at the time and still do. Late in the Evening still gets my heart racing with its latin beat and the best ever song to finish the day with is the closer It’s been a long, long day. You can look down on me if you want to, but we all have to look up to the best American poet, ever.

Led Zeppelin – II 

Riffs forged on tour, stolen from great bluesmen from the past (and even stealing their writing credits), laid down with maximum effect. Yes, we all know Whole Lotta Love, but it is Ramble On, What is and what should never be and of course my favourite, the obscene Lemon Song which makes this album. Played late at night on rubbish headphones to maximise the very rudimentary stereo, this is my early music obsession. There were better, later albums from Led Zep, but this one was the breakthrough for me – about the second or third album I ever bought and I still love it. If I could peep through the bedroom door now, and spy on the 12 year old, standing in front of the mirror pretending to be (alternately) Jimmy Page or Robert Plant (or in his own mind a strange hybrid multitalented version of the two), I wonder what I would think: embarrassed? proud? bemused? Probably all three – bless ‘im, if only he realised he’d only ever learn 4 chords on a real guitar.

Various Artists – Pillows and Prayers

“Pay no more than 99p” this sampler from Indie label (when Indie labels were real labels making music independently and not just self-indulgent fronts for big business) did what it said on the tin and introduced me to bands and artists I had never heard of, to music which enthralled me and many of whom subsequently sank without trace. Yes, Everything but the Girl were there as well as Ben and Tracy in solo form, a wonderful bon mot from Quentin Crisp and a poem by Attila the Stockbroker that even now I can recite by heart (which shows that Slam Poetry is fundamentally a punk thing). It was balanced, it was beautiful and I must have snogged a dozen girls with this playing in the background. Best 99p ever spent, I reckon.

Stevie Wonder – Original Musicquarium

The best songs he ever wrote (before all that schmaltzy rubbish about calling to say he loved you and happy birthday and so on). This is how a Greatest Hits should be – a complete re-recording of your hits, with new insights, new orchestrations, latest production values, and wonderful songs: Boogie On Reggae WomanLiving in the City and many many more. Sublime.

Van Morrison – Astral Weeks

I have a particular weakness for albums and songs which are coiled tight with emotion: Led Zep’s Lemon Song, Alanis Morrisette’s You Oughta Know and Van Morrison’s Sweet Thing are classic examples of these. This whole album is tighter than my son’s wallet, with beautiful songs of love and loss which could go on forever. Indeed, once I was listening to a CD of it and during the exqusite Madam George it kept skipping, but here’s the thing – I didn’t notice! The same riff and line kept playing over and over again, and I was still happily listening to it about 20 mins later. I will always love this record.

Rolf Harris – Sun Arise 

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Yeah, I know. Operation Yewtree and all that… Well, firstly innocent until proven guilty and secondly, what I thought as a five-year-old in 1972 was very different to now. This is a wonderful 1962 comedy album, with songs which I still perform at Church cabaret evenings. Simply and cheaply made, this is mid-60s musical comedy at its best. It makes me laugh and both I and my children know every single word on it. Nick O’Teen and Al K. Hall is a masterpiece. People seem to conveniently forget what Eric Gill was like and concentrate on his fonts and engravings, maybe we should do that for Rolf…

UPDATE: This was written in 2013, before his conviction. I have had to drop performances from my cabaret routine. However, I’m not deleting my comments or my inclusion of this album because, like Eric Gill, a person is more complex than that. I don’t listen to it anymore, but it was at the time very important to me.

Delirious? – King of Fools

The only clearly Christian album in this list, and without doubt the best from Delirious? They were desperate to make the mainstream and never quite did, tried to be a bit too hip when they were a bit too old, but this album catches them at their zenith: beautiful songs, catchy rhythms and at its heart the articulation of one who has come to know Jesus. It spoke to me so loudly when I first heard it.

Magazine – Secondhand Daylight

Overplayed. Over-obscure. Rhythm of your Cruelty is possibly the best song ever written. Ever. The sparse production reminded me of Bowie. The fact you could play it to girls who’d never heard of it and then spend hours trying to understand what on earth Howard Devoto was trying to mean… I loved it. Whenever this comes round around on the random playlist I am filled with nostalgia and excitement. I will never be 16 again, but this whole album brings me right back to the Permafrost

What? No Joy Division? No Paddy Roberts? No REM? No … thing after 1997? Yeah, there are lots of great albums out there, lots of things worth listening to, lots of better songs and better production values. However, these are the ones that I loved and like the purpose of Desert Island Discs, aren’t there to show how hip or connected you are, but what has had a musical impact on your life. I am currently playing to death the latest Lorde album Pure Heroine, and keep coming back to Bowie’s 2013 comeback The Next Day but these (even Bowie tbh) will never make the classic canon of music which moved my soul: from one place to another.

This list isn’t hip… it’s just me.


Greenbelt 2013 Pictures

Pictures by Mark Louden, Adam Buillivant & Bryony Taylor

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What fun we had!


Greenbelt 2013

For us, this was a good Greenbelt: the weather was much kinder than last year and the team was on form: co-ordinated, functional, friendly and a lot of fun: Lou, Liam, Emma, JJ, Jack, Vickie, Elizabeth and Bryony and I worked really well together to deliver five acts of worship. We didn’t take any pictures ourselves, and only a limited number have come our way so far but when I get more in, I will add them to this post.

So this post is a mixture of reflection on what we did and what I saw.

Blessed at Greenbelt 2013

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1. Nursery Rhyme Mass

We filled the Aspire venue: nearly 450 individuals – including a large number of young people joined us for a wonderfully informal celebration of the Mass set to nursery rhymes.

The sight of hundreds of young people sharing the sacraments, and knowing that what they were doing was special (more than many adults in my experience) gives me great hope. The singing was strong and lively and most of the rhymes fitted. I believe the nursery rhyme mass to be an evolving thing and seek newer and better rhymes. Forgot to add gluten free wafers. Ooops. Sorry.

In practical terms, 15 mins to get in and set up a venue was not much time but my team were wonderfully efficient and all played their part. It involves a lot of scrabbling around but everything has its place. I led the Eucharist with little assembly-style links and taught some sacramental theology on the way.

Feedback was really positive:

Jo BM @Twurchsteward : nursery rhymes (which even my belligerent 7yo agreed was ace)
Murray Wilkinson @Murrage: @frsimon nursery rhyme mass = genius, just genius #gbhighlight #GB40
and…

“Just a note to say how much my family enjoyed Blessed’s Nursery Rhyme mass at this year’s Greenbelt Festival. My two boys (4 & 6) had a thoroughly good time, and really marvelled at the opportunity to receive communion. As both an Ordinand (with SWMTC) and a Primary School Teacher, it also gave me lots to think about.  Indeed, I ended up buying your ‘Alternative Sacramental Worship’ book, as well as will be downloading thenursery rhyme liturgy. Thank you.”

Although when one colleague commended the liturgy online it provoked a typical storm of backlash from some Romans, who only seem to be able to approach the sacraments with po-faced disapproval. The Eucharist is at the very heart of my being, but it is not Defeat which draws me to it, but Victory – the sacrifice of the mass is not sad because Jesus died, but joy in the triumph of the Resurrection and His presence with us in broken bread and wine outpoured. This worship is not therefore as they might see it a mockery of the Church but a celebration of all that it gives to all ages. I’m with Pope Francis on this, not Pope Emeritus Benedict and they should lighten up.

For everyone else, it was just what Greenbelt was about: fun and prayerful. Praise God!

2. Blessed Big Top Big Bash

We didn’t get much time between the end of the NRM and the Big Top gig. As a diabetic, lunch is non-negotiable so by the time we had a sandwich it was time to be at the Big Top. We only had 30 mins get in and as we arrived the previous stage was not yet struck. Cue more franticness and a team working well together. My stress was the need to find a new phone battery from my bag. The WiFi link between the laptop and the tablet is essential, as I have taken to using Splashtop to provide an altar monitor: no wires, no fuss but with no WiFi, it doesn’t work. A colleague calmed me down in just the right way and when the Bowie Diamond Dogs video started and Metanoia kicked in with an Aerosmith song the adrenaline was on.

Blessed Big Top Bash Greenbelt 2013

The liturgy was really good, with a dozen concelebrants, and a Big Top with 700 people in it, who got it (with one exception – a man who seeming hated everything at the festival this year). The band were on form: Ruth wrote this amazing Mass Setting especially for the worship, and even though I messed up the beginning, it was a wonderful setting. I hope they’ll use it elsewhere and further in their Rock Masses, which I hope to come up and celebrate sometime soon.

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Knotty Intercessions were a highlight – when we did them live at Walsingham, the bits of cloth all linked together like a messy spider’s web, but for Greenbelt the OCD-ness of the congregation came out and there was a massive single strand of prayer. One person said “I didn’t want to add my strip because they had my prayers on, but when I saw another piece just like mine in the line, I knew I had to given them up!” Just like our own prayers, I suppose. I just kept pulling it and it went on and on. In the end, I started improvising more lines about our prayers being linked: a common thread. The best we’ve done in the intercessions I think, and of course, tribute goes to the person who had the original idea: my youngest daughter Zoe.

The Penitential rite was in the middle, because it moved us from dystopia to utopia and used my favourite gimmick: the flash paper.

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What else needs to be said about what God does with our sin?

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No end of positive feedback for this one:
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Sisters of Bethany @bethanysister : @frsimon @Metanoiauk thank you for making our first visit to Greenbelt so rich. Loved the Blessed Mass. God bless!
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3. Worship Pageant
Finish the Mass by holding before the people the Blessed Sacrament, before starting the Procession
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And then procession with our canopy…
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Onto the MainStage for a good combination of all different kinds of worship and spirituality, ending with me giving Benediction from the mainstage. It was clear that if you didn’t know this was a monstrance, you’d just think it was a kind of Cross, so no-one was offended and many were blessed, even those who didn’t realise it.
4. Social Media Worship
Analysis of this will take a whole separate post, but suffice to say, this was a real venture into the unknown. Would it work? Who knew. On balance I think it did, and we learnt loads. You will never know until you try it. We took up residence in the Contributors with a load of tablets and a laptop connected to my 3G phone (because the Greenbelt people didn’t want to play) which worked well.
It brought some amusing responses:
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In its own way, it worked. We enjoyed doing it, and we will have another go building on this soon. A fuller exploration of this to follow.
5. Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament
A real contrast to everything else. They said “can you do something catholic and contemplative?” I replied “We could get Jesus out for an hour and have Holy Hour…” The exposition of the Blessed Sacrament, surrounded by tealights and in complete silence. This was prayerfully powerful.
“What happens?” asked someone “Nothing, just prayer” whispered Fr. E.
The sacrament had been consecrated the night before at the liturgically powerful, wonderfully celebrated but fearfully badly organised Goth Eucharist. Fr Robb and Fr Edward knew what they were on, and should be given a greater role in making the Goth Eucharist happen: they are natural liturgists and excellent celebrants. I cannot say the same for all the clergy there. The liturgy was, however, excellent, beyond excellent: poetic and powerful, but needs the guiding hand of a liturgist to make it both authentic and valid.
In the presence of the Lord, an extrovert often has problems with the nothingness, but this time my prayers soared and it was invigorating. I was taken aback by this.

Other things in the Festival

I go to Greenbelt for worship, and find the other things (comedy, music, spoken word) a bonus. I go to the worship to be stimulated, challenged and above all to steal good ideas.
Worship Highlights for me included:
  • Holy Ground – who used an early experiment by me in Kinetic Typography. A really good exploration of sheltering from the Storm in Christ
  • Goth Eucharist – mentioned previously. I would have prefered more band than nChant, but that’s my personal preference. Fr Edward even did an impromptu baptism as everyone else renewed their promises, and because he did so, I know there will be proper follow up, post baptismal care and documentation of that.
  • Les Mis Mass – normally I am very vocal in my aversion to Les Miserables but I have to admit this really worked. Carol’s idea really came off and she should be congratulated for that. Fr J celebrates beautifully.
  • U2Charist – which suffered from technical issues with the screen but was musically awesome (Metanoia again!)
  • Meeting Susan Sayers – what an inspiration this lady is: recovering from a stroke and yet still sitting on the floor with children, using simple ideas for worship and engagement with God.
  • Beer and Hymns. The idea is to drink some beer and sing some hymns. Nuff Said.

Beer and Hymns 2013

 

The other highlights was encountering and chatting to many good people, too numerous to mention, but I learnt a lot from you this year (especially you, Fr E!). The Jesus Arms is where many of this took place and over a beer seems to be the best place to engage with theology, I think.

I don’t do much music, but as I passed the Roots open mic, I heard a good number of good performances and a couple of really dodgy ones. I also enjoyed StylusBoy at Last Orders and Maia at the Performance Cafe, both of which were for me, happy accidents.
Comedy is always enjoyable, but Last Orders suffered from what I felt was excessive length on the first night and tiredness from me, which meant I didn’t ‘get’ Barbara Nice, whom everyone else in the world considers to be hilarious. Maybe next time.
The greatest find was the spoken word strand, and the event in the Big Top brought new poetry into my consciousness. I was hugely moved by poems on Palestine by Rafeef Ziadah and the one long poem by Josh Idehen ‘Dad Poem” on his Father brought me to tears: a moving account which as both Father and Son spoke deeply to me. It was topped by Harry Baker’s awful puns and his excellent “Popup Paper People” Modern poetry is a thriving artform and something which I should explore further.
My weekend seemed to be based in the Jesus Arms and I especially enjoyed the Barnsey and the Piston Broke.
The weather was good, the team excellent, the tone of the Festival good. It was a great weekend. Thanks be to God.

Mastermind

Last night (14th September)  I travelled up to Salford to visit BBC TV’s studio to take part in Mastermind, but as it has just been broadcast (25th January 2013) and I have now seen it for the very first time, I can blog about it.

It was a really enjoyable experience, despite the nerves of appearing in that ominous black chair. Most of my nerves were focused on the travelling arrangements as I had a wedding to conduct back in Plymouth the following day. The meant rushing away from the studios in a taxi and getting a train from Manchester to Bristol, arriving about midnight there and staying in a Holiday Inn overnight, before getting a morning train back home. This is where I sit typing this. I got back home on time, and the Wedding was lovely.

Plymouth is a long way from anywhere, and train travel is expensive: £133 Advance Single from Plymouth to Manchester! I left at a reasonable time and got into Manchester for lunch, at the excellent BarBurrito in Picadilly Gardens- cheap eats and tasty food.

The best way to get to MediaCity is via the Tram. I really like the Manchester Tram system, and as that city continues to grow and regenerate, it is a lovely trip, through the Salford Quays and into the bright and shiny future that is TV production in the North. A lot of BBC production has moved up to Salford: Radio, Sport, Children’s and a number of shows, including Mastermind.

It turns out we were one of four quizzes to be filmed that day, and they were ahead of schedule. There was an audience for it, and apparently, there is a waiting list to see the show. Once we got into the studio, I could see that there was quite a diversity of people in the audience, and certainly not people just filling up an afternoon: the unemployed or the elderly; and on reflection, I could see that this would be a good afternoon’s entertainment.

The first thing that strikes me about TV production is simply how young the production team are: young women in their early 20’s: they look like they have stepped straight out of University and into the TV  studio. They all appear disconcertingly to be the age of my children. Almost immediately, we were whisked down to the ‘green room’ (now there is only a green wall to remind us of the origins of a soothing room to rest the eyes from the lime-lit theatre lights) where we have a run through the rules, and we check not only our details for the captions and, perhaps surprisingly, the next round’s subject. For tonight, the caption will read

Reverend Simon Rundell, Church of England Vicar, Monty Python.

I make a decision internally to name myself as without the Reverend bit, and let the caption handle that, but as I am dressed in my best black suit and a clerical collar, it’s pretty obvious isn’t it?

The other contestants and I shake hands and meet: instantly we all agree that this was a really stupid idea. There is Kate, a student from Somerset, but who is ironically studying International Relations at Plymouth Uni; Mark, a bookseller from Cambridge and Robert, a writer from… somewhere. Robert is the experienced quiz hound: he’s done Mastermind before, and also the Weakest Link. We swop specialist subjects, and as usual mine causes much hilarity. My story also has to be prefaced with the story of my failed subject: Viz Magazine, as everyone makes the connection to a Vicar answering questions on Buster Gonad and his Unfeisably Large Testicles. However, Python it is. Kate is on Horatio Nelson, Mark on the TinTin books of Hergé and Robert on “the big five of Africa”. “Big Five what of Africa?” I ask… Countries, Buses, Lakes… it turns out it means Big Game Animals. Mark thanks me for asking, as he didn’t know either, and I’m as usual the one who asks the bleedin’ obvious.

They check our wardrobes. The black suit is fine. The letter said “don’t wear all black” but I told the producer and he was happy. No qualms from the man in charge, who is more concerned with Mark’s fine herringbone collar on his jumper.

Make up, not surprisingly has to deal with my shiny bald head. Good job I shaved it properly last night.

They put radio mics on us, which I am jealous of, and I end up in conversation with the sound engineer on the subject. These beauties are Sennheiser’s top models, and I have the utter opposite end of the Sennheiser scale.

Led inside, we are instructed by the floor manager where to sit, and which cameras to look at in the opening shots. A warm-up man is keeping the audience jolly. He is an accomplished comedian and has been on TV himself, but this is like club work. Of course, he starts making jokes at the expense of me, but not unkindly – you get used to any joke being referred back to you “Sorry about this one, Rev…”

As we get told where to walk to get to the chair, I am hit by nerves. Luckily I remember the little black plastic rosary in my top pocket. I hold onto this now for the rest of the filming. It really is true: hold on to the Cross. It helps.

I am first.

Gulp.

John Humphries comes on, and is very nice, especially in the pauses between bits. However, the thing is over really so quickly…

I am called up, walk to that chair. I introduce myself as just “Simon Rundell” and the Python questions begin. I know most of them. At this point, however, I only recall a few of the questions, I know I answer one question about a Michael Palin character as EL Gumby, but which later I anxiously recall it could have been JP Gumby – I think both names were used. I passed on the name of the original director, which I knew, but my mind went blank on- it was John Howard Davies. Grrr. As I’m first up, I have no idea if this is good or not. I get the last one wrong – the award they gave themselves I said was the Golden Stoat, but it was the Zinc Stoat of Budapest – I knew that! Did I get any others wrong or passed? I have no idea… two minutes went in a blur.

Score: 12

I held onto and fiddled with my rosary throughout.

Other contestants next: Kate answered loads, and yet surprisingly only got 5. Strange, it seemed more than that. Mark really knew his stuff. We agreed that as we had no idea what the questions would be about, we hoped that our enthusiasm for the subject would pull us through. For both him and me, it did. He got 13. Robert came on with what I might have imagined to be a bit of an experienced swagger. He got 11. I’m second.

Between each of us, there is a little pause as questions are checked. It didn’t happen after my first round, but did after the General Knowledge. That’s quite nerve-wracking… why? Will this benefit or hurt my score? John Humphreys chats to the contestants, and comes over as quite nice.

Round two: General Knowledge. Now two-and-a-half minutes. It’s in reverse order of scores, so Kate comes up and does well to raise her score to 15. Robert comes up to 23 and then it’s me…

I get loads of questions wrong. I pass on five – yes, five! Some were questions I knew or should have known – the author of Morse- Colin Dexter’s name just went straight out of my head. The 2.5 mins takes forever, but I am enjoying answering the questions. The big challenge is not to interrupt the question if you know it. It helps though as you know for a fraction of a second you have it nailed, a moment’s reprieve. Listening is hard, and sometimes the first part of the question is zoned out, as you reflect on the previous one.

I get 13. Total of 25. Not bad, really.

Mark does just as well. He ends up with 26. I have come second. Respectable.

We then have to reshoot some bits: Kate’s walk to the chair, and my walk and introduction, as they will now take Reverend off my titles. I suppose the collar makes it obvious. My plan could have been seen to backfire, but as I said, I really don’t deserve reverence.

I walk up, sit down… and cock it up. Back again. I joke about having to talk in public for a living, and the warm-up man comments that I should do  more TV- yes please. I get it right next time.

Into a debrief room. They have booked and paid for a cab. We are well on time, so I am not stressed. It would appear that the 6 highest scoring runners up also get through, so I might still be in the next round. I didn’t know this. I didn’t make the highest runners up, so that was the end of my Mastermind and TV career. Mark is going to do the Pixies, (the band, not the mythical creatures) next. Well done to him.

Manchester Picadilly, a quick bite of sushi but there is not much on the trolly, so I get 4 cans of Stella for my journey to Bristol. The Stella goes down really well, and by Midnight I am in Bristol. Overnight in a hotel in Bristol and now back on the train to Plymouth in time for the wedding.

Lou and I speak and she says how proud of me they are: at least I didn’t embarrass myself. Second is respectable. Getting to this point is an achievement, and meant passing two tests and an interview, so four and a half minutes on the telly is a fair reward. I’ll have to update my CV.

Did I enjoy it? Strangely, yes. Would I do other quizzes? I don’t know. I like pub quizzes but I don’t take them seriously – I enjoy them as fun and the opportunity to work the room as the local Vicar. TV quizzes for cash? I don’t think I’d like the pressure. It was a lot of fun, a great adventure and an experience.

We’ll just have to see how it looks on the telly…

…and here it is!

http://youtu.be/Uf9-zVLVJ6c

Are you a Pass Master?

This only shows your General Knowledge Passes, consequently, I sound really dumb… http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p0144w4y 

c9be0333-8ea0-4351-bb2b-d7a9c6d2fad6What a massive chin I have…


Progress


This morning sees me at 87.3kg – and the excellent MyFitnessPal system has momentously dropped by daily calorie goal to 1600Kcal a day, so it’s going to be harder now. The reason it is going to be harder is this: food obsesses me. Hunger, Blood Sugar (I have been an Insulin-dependent diabetic for the past 27 years), calories, hypos and hypers, the pleasure of cooking and eating all dominate my thinking and then the associated guilt that it’s all too self-absorbed and that  this is an introspective conceit. Thin people simply don’t think about food. I do all the time, and I’m not disciplined enough to resist the temptation of self-indulgence. This isn’t sin, but I’m fairly convinced that my self-absorption with it is sinful.

Over the years my weight has meant that I have become more and more Insulin-resistant – requiring more and more insulin to try and control my blood sugars which have at best been mediocre. I have got to this point remarkably without many severe complications (praise God!) but better control can only come via smaller doses: I can only take control over my HbA1c once my weight is lower. It would seem that these blocks need to be lined up in a row, and dealt with one-by-one.

Still, Christmas is coming and it’ll all go to pot over that time, as I am so prone to grazing and snacking…